Zen

My Zen has been destroyed.
My usual calm piece of mind is gone and I am well and truly unable to think like an adult 50% of the time.

Before my appointment yesterday I lay about in Aces room and harassed him with my Tigger that I picked up on last Saturdays shopping spree. Ace is being extremely productive and applying for graduate jobs. It seems very tedious, I'm not sure where he finds the willpower.. I'm not sure I could.

From that I'm not saying escorting is the easy way out.

I mean other than the actual appointments there's advertising, marketing and web design (luckily I'm doing a PR degree) as well as working out, hair and nails every week to minimise anything that makes me look even slightly mundane. Still can't believe its part of the job but the point is it takes up time. Then obviously phones calls from you guys, various dungeons, various mistresses and the rest of my sub sluts...

Actually. Maybe it is the easy way... I would be doing all of the above even if it wasn't my job.

Written in the stars.